I Admit It

Yep...ancient adolescent.  How did this happen?  I'm in my mid-60s!  I'm retired!!!  I got the graying, wiry, curly hair flying in every direction.  I'm relentlessly fighting my midriff bulge...working out with weights, doing 45 minute cardio downloads almost everyday.  I try to watch what I eat but I still love my fries and burgers....my vegetarian kids are rolling their eyes.  I love a fresh salad, but I am sorely tempted by filet mignon and ribs.

I am in a war against saggy arms, saggy thighs and a saggy butt.  I do this upper body workout by Chris Freitag that is so intense I have to drink a glass of water every 10 minutes!  "I love sculpted shoulders," she announces while incessantly wielding these ungodly heavy weights over her head.  "Back at ya, Chris!" I gasp.

I can't say I'm winning the battle but I'm not about to concede.  I'm not a gym rat.  I have no schedule, I'm on the road constantly.  Gave up my gym membership...can't commit to even one class.  The battle is being waged in my living room using my iPod, while watching The View or listening to NPR.

I call myself an ancient adolescent because I feel as light and free as I did as a teenager without all the angst of not being independent or knowing what the future held.

As that future unfolded, I loved being a mom, raising wonderfully challenging children.  I welcomed a career in education where I felt I could make a difference in someone's world.  I faced the overwhelming tragedy of loving and losing my dearest friend and mate through the scourge of AIDS.

I had a hip replacement 12 years ago....I fought breast cancer as has practically every one of my close friends.  I take Lipitor for my ridiculously high cholesterol levels.  I've had three knee surgeries....blah, blah, blah.  You get the point.  You get this far, you got issues!!!

I'm a lucky girl.  I'm winning the battle.  I've got more energy than I had 20 years ago.  I wake up every day renewed and ready for whatever the day brings.  I got to retire in an economy that makes that almost impossible.

Now it's my turn to do what I want to do.  I always wanted to write so now I blog.  My first blog was all about my hapless love life and my second blog focused on my spiritual evolution and my encounters with the 'other world.'

But, this is my stream of consciousness blog.  Only God knows where we're headed!